Monday, 31 March 2003


I’ve put myself into this straight jacket.
At least I can breathe. At most, I’m alive.
And somewhere in between is my uncomfortable reality:
Being bound-up, and unsure of how to get out of this position. 

In a romantic fantasy, someone saves me by undoing the restraints. 
On the days that I’m most hopeful, I am able to envision setting myself free. 
Other days I feel creative and I think really, really carefully, 
Trying to imagine sitting in just slightly different enough of a position 
That I can enjoy the constraints, or at least forget that they are there. 

But what I actually do is divert my thoughts, and practice a very disciplined form of avoidance. 

If I’m lucky, the clasps will break on their own from time and aging.
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