Most nights I can't sleep. I'm hurriedly awakened in the middle of the night to greet silence, alone in my room, by what has to be my own unconscious thoughts creating this persistent unease. I'm scared.
For all my foresight, I can't suppress the unpredictability, incalculablility of what happens next.
Is it lonely? Will I be alone? Will I care? Will I have pushed everyone away? Will I have preferred it?
When my work is done, the homework finished, and other burdens laid to rest, who will I be?
Perhaps it's this question that plagues me in my sleep.